You are NOT going to believe this

Seriously, my mind is completely blown. This is so weird. For those of you who don't know my situation, let me give you a quick brief. Basically, for the last couple of years I have been treated for PCOS (Poly cystic ovarian syndrome) and insulin resistance. I have also been struggling with infertility as a result of anovulation. That's sort of just the tip of the iceburg, but you get the picture.

S0, remember in one of my previous posts I talked about getting a bunch of tests done that the new doc ordered? Basically, Dr. Reproductive Genius was baffled that none of my previous Dr.'s have done much testing on me to determine a fast cause of all my problems. I have had a few tests done, but nothing of much value as far as diagnostics go. Mostly the other doctors have just evaluated my symptoms as evidence enough of PCOS and Insulin Resistance. So, new doctor ordered a whole fresh workup.

Anyway, I talked with the infertility genius' office and they told me that ALL my tests for PCOS came back NORMAL. But I'm still not ovulating regularly. You got it, it is a distinct possibility that I have been treated for the WRONG things for the last 2 & 1/2 years. Do I need to say that again? 2 & 1/2 YEARS!!! This is making me crazy. At least if the Dr. had seen a distinct cause of my infertility, we could have known what options were available for treatment. But now, I have no idea whatsoever. So it's back to the Dr. on June 2nd. I'm sure I'm probably in for another round of tests.

I can't even express my frustration in writing. It makes me question whether all the time we have spent trying to get pregnant has been a waste. Why does it have to be so hard? Aren't we commanded to multiply and replenish the earth? I know that Hubby and I will be great parents. Every time I care for a child, I know in my heart that motherhood is my calling. So why must we suffer through so many barriers? My mother in law is an OB nurse, and every day she sends babies home with people who have no business trying to raise children. They just keep getting younger and younger. I think she helped deliver an 11 year old once who had gotten pregnant by her boyfriend who was just a little older than her. Why does God send babies to druggy 14 year old little girls but not to me? It was a miracle that I got pregnant with my son. I have always known that, but I know that even more now. So why did God take him from me? You don't need to tell me the answers to these questions, because I know all these answers in my head. But sometimes it's hard to get my heart to believe them.